A Back Seat Driver
By Anthony Douglas Gere
Someone once told me that, "You know AD, when life or shit happens and
drops you to your knees, you have four main choices to make at that moment
when they face you; 1) Look up 2) Look down, 3) Suck a dick or 4) Pray". Now I
am not saying that is true or accurate beyond their point, but if you really think
about it, it’s a great quote, something to think about and smile with, and one
helluva opening line for my newest theory. This is how this theory is going to
start, so hold on and lets see if I can let go to capture another classic moment
in text. And come to think about it, "Isn't it ironic how, we ignore those who
adores us. Adore those who ignore us. Hurt who loves us and love who hurts
us until we realize, what we are doing without asking ourselves, why and is it
or was it, worth it?" As many of you know, my life is a trip. I am young,
successful, humble, creative, ignorant to many common things and looking for
things I am not 100% sure, even exist. And while also saying that, I also say that
I have a motto I live by that states, "Life is a trip, so pack lightly because you
will accumulate baggage along the way at each stop". That’s something I have
learned to teach myself everyday, as I also sometimes reflect on the things
that seem to keep happening to me, as I attempt to break the cycle, start
another one and witness my choice(s), each and every moment I am able to
look back upon them. Now I’m not sure I have ever mentioned this before in my
writings / theories, but when I started out making a name for myself in Marin
County many years’ back, one of the charities I volunteered for and eventually
became on the board with was M.A.W.S. It stands for Marin Abused Women
Society, and in it, were women that have been to my definition, to hell and back,
during rush hour traffic in one of my exotic vehicles. Now this theory is not
about them or my cars, but more or less, on the perception on how we view
them, ourselves and the things we wish to be associated with. In life, from
what I have humbly learned and witnessed, the only certainty, ultimately, is the
outcome. Period, nothing more or nothing less. Things can appear, may
appear, seem or statistically be in favor or not of something, and maybe
rightfully so. But the only certainty in anything, is the outcome when reflecting
back on your journey to your newfound destination. It’s a matter of importance
to me, in my opinion, and until a person realizes that its not the cards that they
were dealt in life or in the game that they need to worry about, and its about
how you play them, do you rise above the things that were keeping you down,
playing a game you didn’t know you were playing with yourself. I mean look at it
this way, 190 people got or contracted the swine flu recently, and all of a
sudden, everyone is wearing protective mask, get checked and overly
concerned about their health. Hell, I know I did, and I almost suffocated CJ with
things bundling him up and away from anyone that looked like the were about
to cough. But for decades, over 14 million people in this world has HIV and or
AIDS, and I would wager than less than half of them have gotten checked and
still ignore wearing a condom during casual sex. So when someone asked me,
do you think we have a chance on making it in any type of relationship, I
honestly can not answer it without knowing, where they have came from and
where they wish to go, based on my own experiences in the same but different
manner. I mean things may be in our favor at the time we discuss them, look
good on paper, the timing may seem right and more. But ultimately, the only
certainly, is the outcome, so maybe, we will see and find out when we get there
and reflect back, on where we just left, is what I proud say and tell them. Each
step is either gong forward or backwards, and sometimes idle, so you can
really measure progress in and on our path, just the end or destination. But
while also saying that, I also feel it is better to lose a lover than to love loser,
and someone once told me when we were dating, as I told them when they ask
me, "Anthony, why do you get worried when you see someone other than
family hold or hug me". I told her, "Its not that I am worried, jealous or envious,
its just that when that situation occurs, everything I have imagined, want for
myself and the relationship with you and you alone, is in their arms and I am at
their mercy.
By Anthony Douglas Gere
Someone once told me that, "You know AD, when life or shit happens and
drops you to your knees, you have four main choices to make at that moment
when they face you; 1) Look up 2) Look down, 3) Suck a dick or 4) Pray". Now I
am not saying that is true or accurate beyond their point, but if you really think
about it, it’s a great quote, something to think about and smile with, and one
helluva opening line for my newest theory. This is how this theory is going to
start, so hold on and lets see if I can let go to capture another classic moment
in text. And come to think about it, "Isn't it ironic how, we ignore those who
adores us. Adore those who ignore us. Hurt who loves us and love who hurts
us until we realize, what we are doing without asking ourselves, why and is it
or was it, worth it?" As many of you know, my life is a trip. I am young,
successful, humble, creative, ignorant to many common things and looking for
things I am not 100% sure, even exist. And while also saying that, I also say that
I have a motto I live by that states, "Life is a trip, so pack lightly because you
will accumulate baggage along the way at each stop". That’s something I have
learned to teach myself everyday, as I also sometimes reflect on the things
that seem to keep happening to me, as I attempt to break the cycle, start
another one and witness my choice(s), each and every moment I am able to
look back upon them. Now I’m not sure I have ever mentioned this before in my
writings / theories, but when I started out making a name for myself in Marin
County many years’ back, one of the charities I volunteered for and eventually
became on the board with was M.A.W.S. It stands for Marin Abused Women
Society, and in it, were women that have been to my definition, to hell and back,
during rush hour traffic in one of my exotic vehicles. Now this theory is not
about them or my cars, but more or less, on the perception on how we view
them, ourselves and the things we wish to be associated with. In life, from
what I have humbly learned and witnessed, the only certainty, ultimately, is the
outcome. Period, nothing more or nothing less. Things can appear, may
appear, seem or statistically be in favor or not of something, and maybe
rightfully so. But the only certainty in anything, is the outcome when reflecting
back on your journey to your newfound destination. It’s a matter of importance
to me, in my opinion, and until a person realizes that its not the cards that they
were dealt in life or in the game that they need to worry about, and its about
how you play them, do you rise above the things that were keeping you down,
playing a game you didn’t know you were playing with yourself. I mean look at it
this way, 190 people got or contracted the swine flu recently, and all of a
sudden, everyone is wearing protective mask, get checked and overly
concerned about their health. Hell, I know I did, and I almost suffocated CJ with
things bundling him up and away from anyone that looked like the were about
to cough. But for decades, over 14 million people in this world has HIV and or
AIDS, and I would wager than less than half of them have gotten checked and
still ignore wearing a condom during casual sex. So when someone asked me,
do you think we have a chance on making it in any type of relationship, I
honestly can not answer it without knowing, where they have came from and
where they wish to go, based on my own experiences in the same but different
manner. I mean things may be in our favor at the time we discuss them, look
good on paper, the timing may seem right and more. But ultimately, the only
certainly, is the outcome, so maybe, we will see and find out when we get there
and reflect back, on where we just left, is what I proud say and tell them. Each
step is either gong forward or backwards, and sometimes idle, so you can
really measure progress in and on our path, just the end or destination. But
while also saying that, I also feel it is better to lose a lover than to love loser,
and someone once told me when we were dating, as I told them when they ask
me, "Anthony, why do you get worried when you see someone other than
family hold or hug me". I told her, "Its not that I am worried, jealous or envious,
its just that when that situation occurs, everything I have imagined, want for
myself and the relationship with you and you alone, is in their arms and I am at
their mercy.
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