Do You Remember? Page 2
By Anthony Douglas Gere
I never stepped on anyone, though I did step over him or her while they were
laying down sleeping on me learning like a maniac. I basically applied myself in
a area not inhabited, and placed everyone I was affiliating myself with, in a win-
win situation. The thing is, something happen where they said I had the ability
to stop something no one could predict, and that even though I am new to this,
have no formal experience, look to them for guidance and it simply is not true,
they threw me under the bus to get ran over, to see if I would get up in the
aftermath not wondering who told me to stand out in the middle of the street.
Yeah, they did me dirty, but here is the thing, not only did I allow myself to be
used, what never got thought about, is that I wanted to be used to see if what I
thought was true, was. Yes, I didn’t mind being the scapegoat, because I knew
the pain they could and more than likely would inflict, was not strong enough to
hurt me, just let me know I was right and it was there. It was a validation so to
speak, to see if I was on the right path. But you know sometimes when you do
things like this, you wouldn’t mind being wrong sometimes, because in all
reality, things don’t need to be like this. I guess it’s our angel side of our
conscience that wants to believe the good in all people, but sometimes its not
the people that do good or bad, just the situation they place themselves in that
lifts or put you, up or down. That’s the thing. What is and was important to
them, was not to me. I never wanted to take over, replace them or push them
out. I only went there to learn, meet with the elements and witness the battles
that will happen on that level. After going blow for blow with many elements on
this level, I decided that fighting down here, is meaningless, so why do it, when
I have the ability and option to not be here. So in the end of this situation, I had
to make a choice. To either keep enduring more of this for no reason to me, or
place what I learned in the bank, and withdraw it later if or when I needed it, to
cash a check my mouth may have tried to cash before I knew I had a price to
pay someone else. This is power to me, the ability to recall useful information,
not just gathering it for the hell of it. Not much in my opinion is worth anything if
you can’t share it. That’s the feeling and vibe I am on right now, so ask yourself
this question, "Do You Remember?" feeling like this? And answer it later on
after you finish reading this theory if you don’t mind. Thanks.
So now I am not singing any more, but still kinda bouncing to the beat of my
own drummer. The animals are somewhere playing in or out of the house, my
phone isn’t ringing, and I am pretty much alone for the moment. I have a
Moodsetter CD playing in the background, and I know I need to shave, because
I didn’t do shit yesterday. I know I went out for some stuff, but basically had one
of those hat and sun glasses look, where you couldn’t tell if I had shaven or not,
if you just so happen to run into me while being out and about, and was looking
to see if I had. I was on chill status, and felt I needed a day to myself, to take in
everything that I am going through right now. But anyway, it was a great day.
Very emotional and very much, a learning experience for me. I felt as though I
grew up a little bit, and I know that sounds crazy, but somehow, I think I just
elevated to another level in my life. I am already considered too sensitive by
many, and I guess that may be a trait for people like me born in February
(smile). But yesterday I wasn’t too touchy feely in a mushy kinda way, I actually
felt strong and dam near bulletproof, when I remembered what that feeling felt
like. I was on a cloud, a high, and it was beyond natural, it was life changing. I
think if I had a hardcore negative or positive vice or was looking for one to
become addicted to, whatever I may have eaten, drank or whatever fed into
making yesterday what it was, would make a person think, it was that, that had
them feeling the way I did. Have you ever had moments where everything
seemed, touchable or reachable without effort? A feeling where you drift and
float on something that is magically lifting you to this zone where all that
matters is what is happening, and you are absorbing what is happening
unconditionally. That’s where I was, and I am wondering to myself, do I really
wanna go back there this morning, today and right now, before even having my
morning Venti Soy Black and White Mocha? Or should I stay where I am at right
now, and fight battles I know are waiting for me to arm myself with so we can
get this party started for no reason or the sake of doing something because
there is nothing else better to do?
By Anthony Douglas Gere
I never stepped on anyone, though I did step over him or her while they were
laying down sleeping on me learning like a maniac. I basically applied myself in
a area not inhabited, and placed everyone I was affiliating myself with, in a win-
win situation. The thing is, something happen where they said I had the ability
to stop something no one could predict, and that even though I am new to this,
have no formal experience, look to them for guidance and it simply is not true,
they threw me under the bus to get ran over, to see if I would get up in the
aftermath not wondering who told me to stand out in the middle of the street.
Yeah, they did me dirty, but here is the thing, not only did I allow myself to be
used, what never got thought about, is that I wanted to be used to see if what I
thought was true, was. Yes, I didn’t mind being the scapegoat, because I knew
the pain they could and more than likely would inflict, was not strong enough to
hurt me, just let me know I was right and it was there. It was a validation so to
speak, to see if I was on the right path. But you know sometimes when you do
things like this, you wouldn’t mind being wrong sometimes, because in all
reality, things don’t need to be like this. I guess it’s our angel side of our
conscience that wants to believe the good in all people, but sometimes its not
the people that do good or bad, just the situation they place themselves in that
lifts or put you, up or down. That’s the thing. What is and was important to
them, was not to me. I never wanted to take over, replace them or push them
out. I only went there to learn, meet with the elements and witness the battles
that will happen on that level. After going blow for blow with many elements on
this level, I decided that fighting down here, is meaningless, so why do it, when
I have the ability and option to not be here. So in the end of this situation, I had
to make a choice. To either keep enduring more of this for no reason to me, or
place what I learned in the bank, and withdraw it later if or when I needed it, to
cash a check my mouth may have tried to cash before I knew I had a price to
pay someone else. This is power to me, the ability to recall useful information,
not just gathering it for the hell of it. Not much in my opinion is worth anything if
you can’t share it. That’s the feeling and vibe I am on right now, so ask yourself
this question, "Do You Remember?" feeling like this? And answer it later on
after you finish reading this theory if you don’t mind. Thanks.
So now I am not singing any more, but still kinda bouncing to the beat of my
own drummer. The animals are somewhere playing in or out of the house, my
phone isn’t ringing, and I am pretty much alone for the moment. I have a
Moodsetter CD playing in the background, and I know I need to shave, because
I didn’t do shit yesterday. I know I went out for some stuff, but basically had one
of those hat and sun glasses look, where you couldn’t tell if I had shaven or not,
if you just so happen to run into me while being out and about, and was looking
to see if I had. I was on chill status, and felt I needed a day to myself, to take in
everything that I am going through right now. But anyway, it was a great day.
Very emotional and very much, a learning experience for me. I felt as though I
grew up a little bit, and I know that sounds crazy, but somehow, I think I just
elevated to another level in my life. I am already considered too sensitive by
many, and I guess that may be a trait for people like me born in February
(smile). But yesterday I wasn’t too touchy feely in a mushy kinda way, I actually
felt strong and dam near bulletproof, when I remembered what that feeling felt
like. I was on a cloud, a high, and it was beyond natural, it was life changing. I
think if I had a hardcore negative or positive vice or was looking for one to
become addicted to, whatever I may have eaten, drank or whatever fed into
making yesterday what it was, would make a person think, it was that, that had
them feeling the way I did. Have you ever had moments where everything
seemed, touchable or reachable without effort? A feeling where you drift and
float on something that is magically lifting you to this zone where all that
matters is what is happening, and you are absorbing what is happening
unconditionally. That’s where I was, and I am wondering to myself, do I really
wanna go back there this morning, today and right now, before even having my
morning Venti Soy Black and White Mocha? Or should I stay where I am at right
now, and fight battles I know are waiting for me to arm myself with so we can
get this party started for no reason or the sake of doing something because
there is nothing else better to do?
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