Darkness by Candle Light; Part One
By ADGere
Before separating for reasons that I am sure will be displayed in another theory
sooner or later, someone far from me now but was once close said something
significant to me in a meaningless chat. They said or told me, “that when they are
not in contact with me for whatever reasons, they track my mood, status, mindset and
behavioral patterns through my writings”. I think that’s a cool way to stay connected
from a distance with someone if that’s what you are into, because it’s true that in
many of my essays, I display my inner self in my theories without knowing it. In many
ways I feel all of us also display these characteristics in some form or fashion if we
know it or not and basically tell on ourselves without saying a word. It can be in a
laugh, a smile, how we talk, walk or something not consciously thought out or
planned, and basically tells a story all to its self if you can read in between the lines.
So I agree with that assessment because if I am happy, sad, in deep thought about
anything from apples to xylophones, I do write up a storm and jot down my emotions
and feeling in a universal way via my words. Many do say that I wear my heart and
emotions on my sleeve, and those same people that have never seen me naked or
in a t-shirt should realize and be quick to tell you while understanding this
themselves, that I rarely roll my sleeves up for just anyone, unless its time to get
down and dirty. But yeah, I agree with that in some ways, but feel the most genuine
part of me can be discovered in my words that I faithfully put together in a
unconditional way. Now I also write in abundance from comments I get, questions I
can’t answer and solutions to situations that can be defined as logical non-sense.
Many times in trying to make my point, I come up with short or even long winded
theories of thought in some of my writings that have this delayed reaction once an
action takes place sometime down the road. I mean I know I don’t know everything,
but the things I do know, makes wanting to explore within those unknown journeys
spectacular to me, to say the least. Call it curiosity, call it adventure, but my quest for
knowledge is never ending sometimes, because I wish to seek what life has to offer,
not look for what just comes my way and settle or dwell inside of it. Right now I am
kind of mellow, feeling myself a bit too much in a non-physical way from my
productive day, and searching for the unknown in a place I can’t imagine. I’m also
listening to the Moodsetter Music Mix called, “Passionality” and the first track is the
one and only entertainer, Maxwell. This falsetto neo-soul singing lyricist is spilling
out his soul in one of those early evening highway groove songs you bob your head
up and down to, while also lip syncing the right and wrong words you skip and fit in
off key with your top down driving with no place in particular to go, be or arrive at. This
underground b-side non-radio released head-banging melody is called, “Never
wanting to want you more”, and it is truly hitting on all cylinders as I am warming up
to blow your fucking mind with this theory. If it ends up like that or not, is for you, not
for me to judge. I say that because I will try to lay it out in this one and my intentions
are genuine, and how you enjoy this, is how I hope you know I feel in writing it. What
he is saying in my opinion in the song is that he wants to need someone without
them needing to know he wants and needs them. He wants the relationship to be
second nature to him and part of his mental, emotional, spiritual and biological DNA
that can be passed on through a visual effort and some sort of passionate ESP to
his partner. A feeling so intense, that it breeds and multiplies from within and
overflows in a natural fashion, as his overall makeup on what he is all about and
represents as it boils inside of him wanting to get out. Where lust and love blends,
separates, combines and flows this lava like substances in the form of passion in its
deepest level of infinite moments that are frozen in millenniums on a daily basis. I
guess if you are a man, you are constantly erect and motivated to move every known
mountain unknown to mankind. You are driven to do so because as on many and
every level, you are allowed to yodel within the proverbial valley of a one less ribbed
being, once you acknowledge its existence, and that stimulates you. Now on the
other end of the gender spectrum and you’re a woman, you’re permanently wet, no
not just wet, strike that last statement, you’re soaked, soaked beyond imagination.
Okay, I know that was kind of graphic, but let me take it even further than that
because though it may seem a bit graphic, it’s not detailed enough. I don’t mean
soaked, I’m talking about being drenched! Yeah drench, that’s the word I was looking
for, drenched.
By ADGere
Before separating for reasons that I am sure will be displayed in another theory
sooner or later, someone far from me now but was once close said something
significant to me in a meaningless chat. They said or told me, “that when they are
not in contact with me for whatever reasons, they track my mood, status, mindset and
behavioral patterns through my writings”. I think that’s a cool way to stay connected
from a distance with someone if that’s what you are into, because it’s true that in
many of my essays, I display my inner self in my theories without knowing it. In many
ways I feel all of us also display these characteristics in some form or fashion if we
know it or not and basically tell on ourselves without saying a word. It can be in a
laugh, a smile, how we talk, walk or something not consciously thought out or
planned, and basically tells a story all to its self if you can read in between the lines.
So I agree with that assessment because if I am happy, sad, in deep thought about
anything from apples to xylophones, I do write up a storm and jot down my emotions
and feeling in a universal way via my words. Many do say that I wear my heart and
emotions on my sleeve, and those same people that have never seen me naked or
in a t-shirt should realize and be quick to tell you while understanding this
themselves, that I rarely roll my sleeves up for just anyone, unless its time to get
down and dirty. But yeah, I agree with that in some ways, but feel the most genuine
part of me can be discovered in my words that I faithfully put together in a
unconditional way. Now I also write in abundance from comments I get, questions I
can’t answer and solutions to situations that can be defined as logical non-sense.
Many times in trying to make my point, I come up with short or even long winded
theories of thought in some of my writings that have this delayed reaction once an
action takes place sometime down the road. I mean I know I don’t know everything,
but the things I do know, makes wanting to explore within those unknown journeys
spectacular to me, to say the least. Call it curiosity, call it adventure, but my quest for
knowledge is never ending sometimes, because I wish to seek what life has to offer,
not look for what just comes my way and settle or dwell inside of it. Right now I am
kind of mellow, feeling myself a bit too much in a non-physical way from my
productive day, and searching for the unknown in a place I can’t imagine. I’m also
listening to the Moodsetter Music Mix called, “Passionality” and the first track is the
one and only entertainer, Maxwell. This falsetto neo-soul singing lyricist is spilling
out his soul in one of those early evening highway groove songs you bob your head
up and down to, while also lip syncing the right and wrong words you skip and fit in
off key with your top down driving with no place in particular to go, be or arrive at. This
underground b-side non-radio released head-banging melody is called, “Never
wanting to want you more”, and it is truly hitting on all cylinders as I am warming up
to blow your fucking mind with this theory. If it ends up like that or not, is for you, not
for me to judge. I say that because I will try to lay it out in this one and my intentions
are genuine, and how you enjoy this, is how I hope you know I feel in writing it. What
he is saying in my opinion in the song is that he wants to need someone without
them needing to know he wants and needs them. He wants the relationship to be
second nature to him and part of his mental, emotional, spiritual and biological DNA
that can be passed on through a visual effort and some sort of passionate ESP to
his partner. A feeling so intense, that it breeds and multiplies from within and
overflows in a natural fashion, as his overall makeup on what he is all about and
represents as it boils inside of him wanting to get out. Where lust and love blends,
separates, combines and flows this lava like substances in the form of passion in its
deepest level of infinite moments that are frozen in millenniums on a daily basis. I
guess if you are a man, you are constantly erect and motivated to move every known
mountain unknown to mankind. You are driven to do so because as on many and
every level, you are allowed to yodel within the proverbial valley of a one less ribbed
being, once you acknowledge its existence, and that stimulates you. Now on the
other end of the gender spectrum and you’re a woman, you’re permanently wet, no
not just wet, strike that last statement, you’re soaked, soaked beyond imagination.
Okay, I know that was kind of graphic, but let me take it even further than that
because though it may seem a bit graphic, it’s not detailed enough. I don’t mean
soaked, I’m talking about being drenched! Yeah drench, that’s the word I was looking
for, drenched.
Things Lost N’ Found; “tata” Page 2
By Anthony Douglas Gere
Many people are mentally still where they were seven years ago, that’s a fact, but
look different physically because the times have dictated their personal inflation.
Take the website YouTube for example and how two men made a billion dollars
on an idea based on a television show. It was simple, nothing special and many
swore that idea was theirs, stupid, simple and more. Think about how it came,
what it did and what it is still doing, and you will start to understand that someone
else was thinking about things no one else was, and it stimulated someone else
to start a copycat site named YouPorn. Yeah, that’s right, YouPorn and the man
that created that is now a few hundred million dollars happy, while we are still
saying the exact same thing we said when YouTube’s purchase blew us in
business away, wow, I should have thought of that! So even though I know we all
beat the odds daily in just waking up to many things we wish were not here or
there in our lives, it is a dangerous game we all are playing with our lives each
and every moment when we realize the many that do not wake up, and have such
trivial issues they would be happy to face instead of what we complain about.
Even my life as in yours has change dramatically in these last few years, and now
reflecting back on how I got where I am at today, where will I be tomorrow, and
am right now, I am constantly wondering if am I actually here in the moment the
way I need to be. Many times I feel as though I am struggling with the non-
struggle I now face today, but feel blessed to know what I don’t know, to hopefully
gain a better understanding on the things I never understood. Maybe we as
people on some level, suffer from a constant level of specific indecisiveness in
deciding if we took the right step while looking back at our footprints, and have
become so comfortable with being uncomfortable, that wherever we end up, will
not be where we wish to start our next adventure, and wonder why. I’m not
saying it is wrong or right, up or down or anything like that, but when it comes and
gets down to where we do things in a selfish justifiable way to find out if
something is not how we are acting, that might be hint. And what is worse, is
when we then point the finger at the problem we are creating, somehow saying
we are Holier than Thou and did it to protect our interest of investment, maybe we
should then again, re-think our strategy and the results of our efforts and actions.
Okay I know, I am going on one of those mental tangents where it may seem like a
riddle or physiological quizzes like my man from the company Tickle.com puts
out, but I am just venting out a few things in a different way to try and find
whatever sense can come out in the wash. I know for me, I do this particular
thing and do it for reasons that are pretty much amusing for me, to find the things
I never knew I lost or will find. If I lost you somehow in this theory this quickly, don’
t worry about it, I am just trying to find my groove and taking you with me in this
journey in text. The way I write and think is a lot like when you first get into bed to
go to sleep. You know those weird things we all do that you don’t think about and
just do and can’t explain why? That thing where you adjust your pillows, play with
the covers with your feet and squirm around until you find your spot. Yeah, like
that, and that is what I am doing right now in writing this new theory for you. I am
feeling my way into it, to try and find my groove to hit my comfort zone and elevate
beyond my own understanding. So thanks for understanding and smiling, and let’
s get going because I think I got it, well almost, so stay with me (smile again
please). You see I will be the first to admit that I leave replaceable materialistic
things out in my house when a stranger or newcomer comes over that I may
know, but don’t really know, to see how they act. Some can or may call it a test,
some say bait, or some say even stupid to do such a thing. But even when I find
out what I need to selfishly know by someone else’s actions or reactions, I don’t
expose the person and embarrass them or point out the situation to prove a
point. I am the first to admit that I do drastic and dramatically go into hiding on
what I will show them in the future, but they will never know that I know, because
in the end, it doesn’t really matter any way and the trust issue is irrelevant. But
who has the trust issues, me or them? Yeah they might take something, violate
my privacy and more, but would they do it if I didn’t first entice them? Maybe that’
s the self justifying protection personality inside of all of us, or maybe just me that
limits our capabilities to actually grab the stars we are reaching for. Who knows,
but what I do know is that I thank you once again for strolling down the old
Theories Of Thought road again with me today, and hopefully this can welcome
you to a place of solace and stimulation this holiday season.
By Anthony Douglas Gere
Many people are mentally still where they were seven years ago, that’s a fact, but
look different physically because the times have dictated their personal inflation.
Take the website YouTube for example and how two men made a billion dollars
on an idea based on a television show. It was simple, nothing special and many
swore that idea was theirs, stupid, simple and more. Think about how it came,
what it did and what it is still doing, and you will start to understand that someone
else was thinking about things no one else was, and it stimulated someone else
to start a copycat site named YouPorn. Yeah, that’s right, YouPorn and the man
that created that is now a few hundred million dollars happy, while we are still
saying the exact same thing we said when YouTube’s purchase blew us in
business away, wow, I should have thought of that! So even though I know we all
beat the odds daily in just waking up to many things we wish were not here or
there in our lives, it is a dangerous game we all are playing with our lives each
and every moment when we realize the many that do not wake up, and have such
trivial issues they would be happy to face instead of what we complain about.
Even my life as in yours has change dramatically in these last few years, and now
reflecting back on how I got where I am at today, where will I be tomorrow, and
am right now, I am constantly wondering if am I actually here in the moment the
way I need to be. Many times I feel as though I am struggling with the non-
struggle I now face today, but feel blessed to know what I don’t know, to hopefully
gain a better understanding on the things I never understood. Maybe we as
people on some level, suffer from a constant level of specific indecisiveness in
deciding if we took the right step while looking back at our footprints, and have
become so comfortable with being uncomfortable, that wherever we end up, will
not be where we wish to start our next adventure, and wonder why. I’m not
saying it is wrong or right, up or down or anything like that, but when it comes and
gets down to where we do things in a selfish justifiable way to find out if
something is not how we are acting, that might be hint. And what is worse, is
when we then point the finger at the problem we are creating, somehow saying
we are Holier than Thou and did it to protect our interest of investment, maybe we
should then again, re-think our strategy and the results of our efforts and actions.
Okay I know, I am going on one of those mental tangents where it may seem like a
riddle or physiological quizzes like my man from the company Tickle.com puts
out, but I am just venting out a few things in a different way to try and find
whatever sense can come out in the wash. I know for me, I do this particular
thing and do it for reasons that are pretty much amusing for me, to find the things
I never knew I lost or will find. If I lost you somehow in this theory this quickly, don’
t worry about it, I am just trying to find my groove and taking you with me in this
journey in text. The way I write and think is a lot like when you first get into bed to
go to sleep. You know those weird things we all do that you don’t think about and
just do and can’t explain why? That thing where you adjust your pillows, play with
the covers with your feet and squirm around until you find your spot. Yeah, like
that, and that is what I am doing right now in writing this new theory for you. I am
feeling my way into it, to try and find my groove to hit my comfort zone and elevate
beyond my own understanding. So thanks for understanding and smiling, and let’
s get going because I think I got it, well almost, so stay with me (smile again
please). You see I will be the first to admit that I leave replaceable materialistic
things out in my house when a stranger or newcomer comes over that I may
know, but don’t really know, to see how they act. Some can or may call it a test,
some say bait, or some say even stupid to do such a thing. But even when I find
out what I need to selfishly know by someone else’s actions or reactions, I don’t
expose the person and embarrass them or point out the situation to prove a
point. I am the first to admit that I do drastic and dramatically go into hiding on
what I will show them in the future, but they will never know that I know, because
in the end, it doesn’t really matter any way and the trust issue is irrelevant. But
who has the trust issues, me or them? Yeah they might take something, violate
my privacy and more, but would they do it if I didn’t first entice them? Maybe that’
s the self justifying protection personality inside of all of us, or maybe just me that
limits our capabilities to actually grab the stars we are reaching for. Who knows,
but what I do know is that I thank you once again for strolling down the old
Theories Of Thought road again with me today, and hopefully this can welcome
you to a place of solace and stimulation this holiday season.
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